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| Friday, August 25th, 2006 | | 11:40 am |
Puppy
Today we get to find out what the baby is! I am hoping for a puppy. Should be a cool ultrasound though, they told us to bring a VHS and a floppy disk to save the images on. It has been an odd week. I was sad to hear of the passing of Randimus. He was a kindred spirit. To tell the honest truth I was also rather shocked. I am pretty sure this is the first person I have known personally to die that wasn't older. It was rather shaking. Kaeti is healthy. The baby is kicking with regularity. At times it will wake her up at night. Giving her a chance to practise I guess. She is starting to show which is nice. Sleeping has been difficult though. She is so used to sleeping on her tummy, it is hard for her to get comfortable. | | Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 | | 9:56 am |
| | Thursday, August 10th, 2006 | | 1:51 pm |
eclipse
Felt the baby move last night. Kaeti has been lying around with her hands on the abdomen. Last night she felt it poke. After a few minutes I felt it to. Just wanted to write it down somewhere. | | Tuesday, August 8th, 2006 | | 10:24 am |
An anarchist who tried his best but it wasn't good enough.
There is a certain poetic justice to the world at times. Yesterday I got slightly chewed out by a salesman for not getting an overnight replacement order out the door in time. This morning my boss sent out a company wide email saying that "Service techs are not parts people, they have not the authority or responsibility to ship orders. They are happy to help with part numbers but if you need an order shipped please talk to parts." Can't help but laugh a little at that. However Life wants to drop on me sometimes as well. I mean it was just a few short months from the time that a doctor told us that we would have trouble having a baby to "Surprise!" we're pregnant. Not that i am upset. In fact i am very excited. I've read like 8 different books on pregnancy and childbirth and a few on child rearing. I'd like to figure out a way to keep Kaeti from having to work. But I don't think it will be possible right now. We went to Ga last weekend. That was painful. Something about that place that gives me the creeps. But it was nice to see everyone. On the way back we went to this place called "Sliding Rock" in NC. It is 65 feet of rock with an ice-cold mountain stream running over it. The idea is that you slide down the rock into a pool at the bottom that is 12 feet deep. That was a lot of fun. Of course I couldn't go with my glasses and so I couldn't see a bloody thing. After falling a few times on some big nasty rocks I watched for a bit. On our way out we stopped by the first aid hut for some bandages for my wrist and lip. The ranger was telling us, "Oh yea people hurt themselves constantly. This year already we have airlifted 2 people to the hospital." Joy. | | Thursday, July 20th, 2006 | | 3:28 pm |
Much to tall for a boyfriend
Got back from Chicago at about 1:30 last night. So I am running on caffine fumes. Just wanted to say to all the rainy day travelers sitting in airports that sudoko doesn't make you smart. No one looks over at you sitting by yourself with your giant sudoko book and thinks "Wow they must be smart." Because Sudoko isn't hard. It's basic math and patience. That's pretty much it. Now don't missunderstand. I am glad your easy to entertain and god forbid we actually had to have a conversation. Just thought i'd let you know that it doesn't make you look smart. Now if you're sitting there with a sudoko book in one and a textbook on string theory in the next, then you look smart. Otherwise try something that requires a little sophistication. A little education.. Like the crossword. Kaeti entered the second trimester. So that's exciting. Now we can only hold every other breath. Yea! I am a breeder. Shoot.... Oh well no use crying over spilled... Well whatever it was that spilled. | | Friday, July 14th, 2006 | | 12:05 pm |
Be Serious!
I had a dream last night that we had a little girl. After much deliberation we named her, "Persephone Isabelle Cordellia Jane Heister". We nicknamed her "Lazy Line Painter Jane". She was cute as a button in the dream and she kept holding her head in her hands and saying "BE SERIOUS Mom and Dad.." It was a nice dream. | | Tuesday, July 11th, 2006 | | 9:45 am |
What it means to me to be a man.
My Personal Tenants of Manhood. 1. Men learn that communication works. They learn that pouting and screaming and crying do not. While it may engage sympathy in others sympathy has its limits. 2. Playtime has an end. Eventually you must roll up your sleeves and get to work. I believe that if society still worked under the idea that "when your 16 you become an apprentice and begin the journey to manhood" type thing then most people would be better off. 3. Men may cry privately. Someone needs to be the calm sea in a bad situation. When someone dies, when tragedy strikes when life is too much to bear. Someone needs to be strong. Men can show sadness but men can not under any circumstances fall apart and be unable to do the dishes, pour a drink, fix a flat tire, or pick up a child at any time. Even if you're sick, even if your leg is broken, even if your guts are falling out from jumping on a grenade to save your friends. 4. Men may under no circumstances hit a woman. You may spank your daughters when they misbehave. But a man can control his temper to the umpteenth degree. And when she is play fighting you and you are letting her win its ok, just remember not to hit back with your full strength you will scare her. 5. Men will defend the honor of themselves and their family when it is necessary and safe to do so. This means you will stand up to your family for your wife, stand up for your family to the world and stand up for yourself to God and the universe. This is the hierarchy. Your wife is greater than yourself, family and the world. Your family is greater than yourself and the world. You as a man have to come to terms with your place in the universe and before god. This does not mean you can be stupid and not give a man with a gun your wife's pearls. This is not respecting your wife’s life as greater than the world. 6. Men do not confuse egoism with confidence. It is egoism to tell everyone that you are able to do something. It is confidence to shut your mouth stand up there and actually do it. Action is what makes men, shut up and go to work. 7. Men learn that no one is going to help them, bail them out, or do their work for them. Men know they are responsible for their own actions. If your job is boring, or your dog is lazy, or your kid is dumb, by all means try to correct the situation. But utimately it is your own fault. Men take ownership of problems and try to solve them; they do not wait for someone or something to come fix it for them. | | Monday, July 10th, 2006 | | 12:19 pm |
Perilous
I went I interviewed I never heard back. Must stop. I dug Kaeti's old typewriter out of the attic. That has been fun to play around with. Something about the way the keys clack that can really unlock some creative jucies. I have got two really good short stories in my head right now that i am afraid to actually start because i am afraid that what i put on the paper won't actually do justice to what i have in my mind. Also I have been thinking of the story line for what could be a really great graphic novel if in fact i could write any of it down. How do you write a plot full of suspence when you yourself already know how it is going to end? That is the question that has been bugging me. There is so much up in the air right now. I still haven't heard about the almshouse which i don't think i wrote about here. So i have decided in my mind that we are not going to get it and hopefully i can turn off that part of my brain for a little while. The embryo recently graduated into a full blown fetus which is interesting. Now a good 2 inches long it is fully formed from top to toe and is just getting bigger and bigger. Kaeti is starting to show a little though she denies it and i am not one to press the issue. Trying to figure out if it would be better to stay where i am jobwise or move around a bit and hopefully land in a place with better benefits. I like my job now but there is the travel aspect. Not great if the week after the baby is born i need to leave and go someplace else. But it works for right this very second. Time seems to be moving by very quickly. Mariko came up the other night. We were talking baby names. She like Klaus Vaughn Heister. Which i also am fond of. Though i really like the name Issac as well. But spelled correctly. BTW anyone considering owning their own home. ITS A SCAM. You don't want to do it. You don't really build equity and all the repairs are your own responsiblity. There is a very good reason why CITI bank is the largest company in the world. And that reason is that everyone is MORGATED to them for the rest of their lives. I turned off cable and high speed internet at home. I hate television and i have high speed at work so it wasn't really needed. (also a pretty free schedule at work that lets me spend more than my share of time doing nothing but surf the web) So I am starting to save some money. Money money money.. There is another scam for you. Thinking a lot about Adam and Eve, it's been the source of a research project for me but the more i dig the less i seem to understand. ((Don't touch that one its poisoned!)) Also kind of the subject of a short story i am working on. Kind of a modern day parable. Might post it when i am done. Depends on how sacreligous it is. | | Monday, July 3rd, 2006 | | 10:27 am |
No body knows like family.
My great Aunt died last week. Her memorial service was Saturday. Everyone knew her as “Aunt Belle”. When I was a kid I always felt so lucky because she was actually my aunt, I wasn’t just pretending like everyone else did. She lived a pretty amazing life. If you have a Washington post account you can read the write up they did on her in the Sunday section. http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/07/01/AR2006070100983.html It is strange to see all of this stuff that calls her Ethel. I always knew her as Aunt Belle, I tried to call her Ethel once and she nearly slugged me. It is interesting how events like that can make you think. Our family was very evenly divided demographically. There is the side of the family that is clean cut and religious and has worked very hard to make a good life for their families. Then there is the side that was unshaven, smoked, drank and existed at various levels of apostasy and interfaith. Suffice to say after some consideration I shaved my beard. Yes it is still painful but my parents worked so hard to keep me away from a certain lifestyle that I don’t want to sink back into in spite of them. I got to meet my second cousin Jimmy. At least I think he is a second cousin. He is my great uncle’s son. So I think that makes him a second cousin. He is also Calvert Counties own http://www.therockinelvis.com/ . Hey if you can make a living that way then more power to you. Rock on! Skaeti does indeed prevail. I have decided though that if it is a boy then its middle name should be Vaughn. (pronounced Von) Then he can be “Von Heister!!!!!” I’ll teach him how to shake his little fist when he says it. Leaving you with my own web obituary. Poor Paris. | | Thursday, June 29th, 2006 | | 10:52 am |
The unexamined life
 I would like to start being a bit more regular at this. So many things have been happening in my life i feel that it is important to start documenting them. Watch now i'll say that and then starting talking about my cat or something else equally unimportant. Tomorrow Kaeti is officially 11 weeks pregnant, that is 9 weeks gestational. The little bugger has ear buds but can't really hear yet. Last friday we went to her first pre-natal appointment and got an ultrasound. We could see the little naked mole rat in its nice little cushion dancing. We could see its tiny heartbeat and the Doctor turned on the mic which allowed us to hear it as well. We are calling it Skaeti at the moment for lack of information on the sex and an inability to determine a good name. I like Issac, also Persephone. Kaeti is fond of Isabell. Obviously i have been biting my fingernails bloody thinking about everything that this entails. Being a father and all that. I am worried about having a girl. Just the whole father/daughter relationship thing that is so easy to screw up. People keep telling me that my worry is what will make me a good father, my worry will drive me to constantly improve. I am worried about my job. (as usual) Also as usual i have already gotten bored at it and am back @ LJ looking for ways to fill my time. It is a good job and i like it. I esp. like the travel. But the pay isn't great, and odds are Kaeti will have to stop working soon enough. I suppose she doesn't have to. But I want her to. I guess it was the way i was raised i would feel less of a man to have to depend on day care or family to watch skaeti on a long term basis. But we will see what happens. I'll just send out some resumes and see what happens. (I know i have only been here 9 months. I swear i'll be better the next time!) Check it out I straightened my sci-fi book shelf.. Now what to do with all the other books? | | Friday, May 26th, 2006 | | 10:22 am |
| | Friday, April 21st, 2006 | | 4:50 pm |
| | Wednesday, April 12th, 2006 | | 10:36 am |
Blow up in the face of my rival.
This is going to sound angry and it is. But no one really reads my journal anyway so I guess it doesn’t matter. My question is; what is wrong with other people’s relationships? More specifically what is wrong with all the women that I know? Well not all of them. But I seem to be running into these highly dysfunctional couples lately. Women who for some reason think that it’s 1949 instead of 2006 and that they can survive in a relationship without any effort whatsoever on their part. Kaeti and I met a new couple last night. They seemed “overly cute”. But that is the modern way so I guess I can deal with men who have no balls. I felt like telling them the old real world montage of “stop being nice and start being real”. But like I said I can deal with it. Then I found out the horrible truth; 1. He drives 200 miles a day for work. (ok I commuted about 120 miles when I first moved up the mountain so it’s something you have to live with for a while.) 2. She refuses to work. (And she has no kids or anything else that occupies her time.) 3. She refuses to get a car and/or drive. (I even offered to loan her the extra car Kaeti and I have right now but she wasn’t interested.) What am I missing here? Since when do we live in a society where a couple can afford to have the wife stay home and just cook and clean? She is personally setting back women’s liberation by a hundred years. I believe that a relationship is a partnership. We both maintain the household and we both support it financially. If we were ever to have children than we would decide at that point how the FAMILY would be better if someone stayed home. And it isn’t like he makes such gobs of money that they can afford this. He admitted to me that “money was tight.” Not to mention the fact that he has no time for himself. If he keeps it up he is going to kill himself I am sure of it. No woman is worth that kind of stress. Has anyone else seen this kind of behavior? I will be honest if I was in this relationship I would say, “fine, you want to be a 1950’s housewife?” “No problem.” I would remove her name from the checking account; do all the grocery shopping myself. Expect a pristine house and 3 hot meals a day, and she would give it up whenever I wanted. The poor guy I really felt bad for him. I am not going to assume that he is unhappy with the arrangement. But he sure seemed that way to me. | | Thursday, March 16th, 2006 | | 10:14 am |
| | Tuesday, February 28th, 2006 | | 1:02 pm |
| | Thursday, January 26th, 2006 | | 4:51 pm |
| | Thursday, January 19th, 2006 | | 4:52 pm |
Thought i would update.
 Not sure why. Listening to a lot of classic rock lately. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. The company i work for started a new policy now you use a personal credit card when traveling and they deposit it into your account three days later. I don't really mind, it's actually a great way to get points. (also i got a flight points card so now i get points for flying and points for using the card for flying.) Not too much going on. The web-site looks good @ http://www.thesecretuniverse.com though it needs more content. Also thought i would post a recent picture. Let everybody, (the few who might still read) see who i am. Sexy huh? | | Monday, January 9th, 2006 | | 2:56 pm |
I use 100% of my brain thank you very much.
http://www.snopes.com/science/stats/10percnt.htm1) Brain imaging research techniques such as PET scans (positron emission tomography) and fMRI (functional magnetic resonance imaging) clearly show that the vast majority of the brain does not lie fallow. Indeed, although certain minor functions may use only a small part of the brain at one time, any sufficiently complex set of activities or thought patterns will indeed use many parts of the brain. Just as people don't use all of their muscle groups at one time, they also don't use all of their brain at once. For any given activity, such as eating, watching television, making love, or reading, you may use a few specific parts of your brain. Over the course of a whole day, however, just about all of the brain is used at one time or another. 2) The myth presupposes an extreme localization of functions in the brain. If the "used" or "necessary" parts of the brain were scattered all around the organ, that would imply that much of the brain is in fact necessary. But the myth implies that the "used" part of the brain is a discrete area, and the "unused" part is like an appendix or tonsil, taking up space but essentially unnecessary. But if all those parts of the brain are unused, removal or damage to the "unused" part of the brain should be minor or unnoticed. Yet people who have suffered head trauma, a stroke, or other brain injury are frequently severely impaired. Have you ever heard a doctor say, ". . . But luckily when that bullet entered his skull, it only damaged the 90 percent of his brain he didn't use"? Of course not. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_brainMyth: Humans use only 10% or 1% of their brain. Though the brain still holds mysteries that are being studied, every part of the brain is known to have a function. A possible origin of this myth is the fact that only about 10% of the neurons in the brain are firing at any given time. However, if all of your neurons began firing at once, you would not become smarter, but instead suffer an epileptic seizure. In fact studies have shown that the brains of more intelligent people are less active than the brains of less intelligent people, when working on the same problems. Neener Neener neener | | Friday, January 6th, 2006 | | 3:35 pm |
Women are psychic monsters
All my friends are turning into monsters. They are getting married to other monsters and having little baby monsters. I read this great short story the other day. A group of smart people build a giant powerful computer and feed into it as much information as they can. Finally they pose to it their ultimate question. “Is there a god?” The computer starts to think about it then suddenly some lightening flashes and seals shut the switch that controls the computer’s on/off function. The computer replies, “there is now.” I joined a gym. I am getting vain in my old age. My job is going well. It is pretty easy at the moment, volume is low and mostly I sit at my desk secretly working on my website. Which is looking pretty good right now though I need to add loads more content and fix the avatar’s somehow. I want to move to Santa Cruz. But I also want 40,000,000 dollars so I guess that’s pretty much it. | | Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006 | | 10:44 am |
The worldview of Science Fiction
Hangs mostly on the single assumption that the universe is knowable. It may not be completely knowable by myself, or other living humans. Knowable space may even be beyond the reach of our species life-span. But it is knowable. |
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